Category Archives: Borderline Personality Disorder

I Don’t Even Know What To Title This

Posted on September 14, 2010 by pestilentiallove

I have been at the hospital the last two days because my really good friend was severely hurt. As in life-threatening. They think she will be here for a few weeks. So BP calls me this afternoon (it’s been a few days) … Continue reading →

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Last Night Was Such A Nightmare

Posted on September 12, 2010 by pestilentiallove

Literally and figuratively. He called me last night after texting back and forth and I answered the phone, which I shouldn’t have. He was exhausted and grouchy and he said, “How can you WANT me to be unhappy?” I told … Continue reading →

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This Is Killing Me

Posted on September 11, 2010 by pestilentiallove

I was at my friend’s bridal shower today and wasn’t even going to show up looking like I did in front of a bunch of strangers. But I love my friend and wanted to be there to celebrate her joy. … Continue reading →

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August 2010 Violence

Posted on September 10, 2010 by pestilentiallove

Last month’s fight (August) resulted in a black eye and more arm bruises.  I am actually shocked that there were two major violent episodes between us so closely spaced. But truth is truth and I guess I didn’t realize it until I … Continue reading →

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June 2010 Fractured Arm

Posted on September 10, 2010 by pestilentiallove

In June we had a pretty bad fight about Craigslist. It was still a fresh wound as it had been less than a month. I should have never let him come back to begin with. The fight had started because … Continue reading →

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May 2010 Bruises

Posted on September 10, 2010 by pestilentiallove

This was the fight where I kicked him out and he visited Craigslist to solicit to “get back at me”. This was right before I went out of the country. In comparison to the more recent photos, obviously the violence … Continue reading →

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I’m In The “Anger Stage” I Guess

Posted on September 10, 2010 by pestilentiallove

[Warning: Another stream of nonsensical consciousness follows. Run-on sentences be damned.]I am angry. Pissed off is more like it. I am mostly angry because I love someone so deeply and poured everything I was into this needy sometimes-wonderful-sometimes-horrible individual. I … Continue reading →

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September 2010 – The Physical Aftermath In Photos

Posted on September 9, 2010 by pestilentiallove

I have such an incredible headache today. My ear still feels as though there is water in it and the sound of white noise is somewhat annoying. I have only had a few issues which I am sure are related to … Continue reading →

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The Good Just Doesn’t Stay Around Long Enough

Posted on September 8, 2010 by pestilentiallove

He’s out again, and I have a black eye, bruised knot on my forehead, side of my head, bruised lower cheek and  the worst bruises I have ever had on my arms, elbows, and two footprints from kicks to my … Continue reading →

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After The Bad, Comes The Good

Posted on September 6, 2010 by pestilentiallove

We have been getting along perfectly the last few days, it is actually almost scary. Okay 3 days is really not long, but it seems like forever!  This stage drives me crazy because I don’t understand why it can’t be like … Continue reading →

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